Ughh.. nauseated.

Why? Because I saw couple of photos of you and your ex. Yeah I know you already broke up 6 years ago. I'M NOT JEALOUS OR ANYTHING.

But.

The thought of you treating me the same way to treat her. Thats what makes me want to vomit. And thats it.

I'm NOT letting you treating me that way anymore. I wont let you level down me to your standard. Treat me like diamond. I dont want to be a cheap jeweleries.

Damn it.

This cannot be a mistake.

I'm heartbroken. 

I'm sad. 

Which i shouldnt be feeling that way.

I know about his past relationships. He told me during our early relationship. He was being open to me. I listen all of it. Then I put off the thought.

But sometimes, me being insecure. I want to know more, unnecessarily. Then I found out and it bring me further down. I know I shouldnt be. 

He's mine now. He's the first though. I hope for ever and ever. I know I cant be his first but I want to be his last. 

This cannot be a mistake.