Its just too heavy

Its been years since I've been absent from love.

I used to be girl who dump people but last time, I was dump by a guy.

Thinking back again, I felt so stupid to I fall for that guy.

Sometimes, I've ever wondered how could people who didn't even met before,
fall in love and being serious in relationship.

I know its the heart but how could people blindly believe in the people that doesn't even exist before their eyes.

Maybe its true what they said that Love is Blind. It makes people blind.

Love is just heavy for me to take. A serious relationship could smothering me to death.

Is this what they mean?

Storm in my head, my heart.

I promised myself that I wont ever sleep in the evening again.

I've been wondering since when I've been an absent minded person and become somewhat crazier lately.

It's started to get into me when I accidentally deleted my pictures folder.

Just perfectly in the middle of organizing my HD and eventually it became messier than I've thought.

I become more undependable person who can't get hold of herself. What a messy.