Interview IIUM Medical Center

Hai hai~!

This things only my husband and I know about, but a lot of things happened while working in HKL.. I was under a lot of stress, with works, with my personal life, with finance. I couldn't coup and I was not happy at all. See why my blog not updated for 1 year?

So I give 1 month notice to resign and joined private. Life was good, I'm happy, money is more than enough but I was bored with the cold cases. 

Then come new year, problem arises. I haven't completed my compulsory service. 10 months left to complete 2 years of it. Why? because I was dumb enough not to call MMC regarding the resignation. 

My advice to all doctors, MO especially... THERE'S 2 YEARS OF COMPULSORY SERVICE!!! after you're fully registered with MMC. And so they advised me to complete that ajsfkajgfkjas thing. 

How? 

• Apply for contract MO with KKM just to complete compulsory service
• Apply for any government body; LPPKN, AKDK, Majlis Perbandaran?
• Apply for public institution; university or university hospital 

I applied everywhere that has opening for medical officer. Anywhere. I was hoping for nearby ones to reply especially PPUM / PPUKM.

The first reply I received was from IIUM Medical Center, Kuantan, inviting me for interview on 1/3/2018. So I went for the interview. 

There's so many people. Not only MO, there's dentists, pharmacists, assistant pharmacists, dietitians, staff nurses. For MO, the interview was done in group, we're divided into 2 groups. I was in the second. The interviewer was Pengarah Hospital, staff from Kuantan and Gombak HR, and another doctor I can't remember. 

They asked us to introduced ourselves; name, where we live, graduated when and where, housemanship when and where, moship where, why we choose IIUM Medical Center and which field we're interested in. So we did, one by one. I was last. 

Then the Pengarah Hospital (also HOD Orthopaedic) explained about the hospital blablabla.. it was actually quite relaxing. No medical question at all. *relieved* 

After that, my husband and I went for a date at Teluk Chempedak. Hihihi~ 

3 months later, I received offer letter to work at IIUM Medical Center as permanent Medical Officer. Ahhh, the headache comes again but Alhamdulillah. Headache lah because my hubby works in KL and I have to work in Kuantan.. haiyaaaa~ 

Maybe its for the best. Allah is the best planner. Berserah je lah. 

Bismillahi tawakkaltu. 1/8/2018 - Lapor Diri. 

Doa untukku amalkan. InsyaAllah

ZIKIR DAN DOA LEMBUTKAN HATI (SUAMI, ISTERI, ANAK DAN LAIN-LAIN)

Zikir Pelembut Hati — Zikir ini elok diamalkan oleh isteri yang mahu hati suaminya menjadi lembut.
(1) Ya Aziz (2) Ya Jabbar (2) Ya Mutakabbir

TIPS: Mulakan dengan membaca Al Fatihah sekali kemudian diikuti dengan doa ini.


Baca juga Surah Toha ayat 1 hingga 5


Kemudian berdoa: “Ya Allah, lembutkanlah hatinya sepertimana Engkau melembutkan bagi Daud akan besi.” Isteri juga boleh membaca doa ini sewaktu suami tidur. Hembuskan di tapak tangan dan letakkan di hati (dada) suami. Mudah-mudahan Allah SWT lembutkan hatinya.

DOA PENGIKAT KASIH SAYANG SUAMI ISTERI


 DOA KEBAHAGIAAN SUAMI ISTERI


DOA ISTERI BUAT SUAMI
Maksudnya: “Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, Yang Maha Penyayang. Jadikanlah suamiku sebagai pemimpin yang baik bagi diriku dan anak-anak kami. Jagalah suamiku di dalam mencari rezeki-Mu dan bawalah dia kembali dengan membawa reda-Mu. Hanya kepada-Mu kami berserah dan hanya kepada-Mu kami memohon pertolongan. Ya Allah, Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim. Amin ya Rabbal ’alamin.”

DOA PENGASIH BUAT SUAMI ISTERI


DOA MOHON JODOH DAN KETURUNAN YANG BAIK


DOA MOHON REZEKI




DOA PERMUDAHKAN URUSAN


DOA AGAR PASANGAN SETIA DAN ELAKKAN SUAMI ISTERI BERGADUH


DOA SUPAYA DICUKUPKAN KEPERLUAN


DOA KEBAHAGIAN KELUARGA


 DOA AGAR DIRI, PASANGAN DAN ANAK MENJAGA SOLAT


 DOA PENDINDING SIHIR


DOA PEMBATAL SIHIR

Have you ever wonder?

1. Why I can't trust you?

 What do you expect? You cheated on me for 2 fucking years up until we are married. Very smooth I tell you. Not one or two girls you cheated on me. You were desperately looking around for girls to satisfy your need. You said I don't have time for you because I'm a doctor, well one of your side girl was a doctor too. Fuck.

You told me that's your past. It's not your past when I'm involved. Your past is your ex girlfriends before you met me. I don't care if those were before we're married but we're in a relationship. We supposed to built trust but you engaged to me for 1 year and still building up an empire. Bravo.

You think I forgot already but no, it's still clear and vivid what you did to me. Up until this moment, it sometimes flashed in my mind and I hate it. I can't control it. And I wonder, if I don't struggle and helped you, you would leave me all fucked up like all other girls you left.

2. My trust level?

Not even 20%. Because when I was building up my trust on you, it came crumbling further down again. That's when I decide that I wont put my trust on you. That it's okay to have doubt. Because woman instinct often a spot on. You said "Demi Allah" but it's all a lie.

You said you don't text her anymore but secretly you chat with her in another chat app, only to chat with her and then you delete it. BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT ME TO KNOW OR ELSE WE'LL HAVE A FIGHT. If there's nothing going on between you two, why would you hide it from me? but fine, I will act dumb like kayu if you don't want us to fight. Okay?

3. Do I love you?

I do love you. More than I trust you. But what is love without trust? Then that's how you shaped me. To love without trust. That's why I'm insecure. If I don't love you I don't care what you did, where you go, whom you chat with.

“Caring for somebody, i thought that was love.
But it’s not that simple.
I still care for him.
But..
I hate him to death”

4. Am I happy with you?

To be honest, I don't know. I don't know anymore. With all the insecurities, I'm don't think I'm happy. I'm sorry.

If I can get a wish granted, I would wish for the day I found out you cheated on me is 1 year earlier, not 6 days before we're married. And not after we're married. That's what I want the most.

This is how you shaped me, husband. What did I do to deserve all of this?

Biarlah aku menanggung sendiri...

Tertutup sudah pintu hatiku
Tak usah engkau memujuk rayu
Biarpun berpisah nyawa dan badan
Sudah bersumpah tidak berdepan 

Mendengar namamu bagai memikul beban 
Mendidihlah kemarahan yang terpendam 
Itu belum lagi kita berdepan
Lebihlah elok jika dibiarkan
Kemarahanku reda sendiri
Usah ditambah bara yang tersimpan 

Walaupun berbagai rencana engkau lakukan
Sedikit pun tidak melembutkan hati
Malah makin tebal kebenciaanku
Serta marahku tiada berkesudahan
Biarlah aku menanggung sendiri
Segala dosa kerana membencimu

Lebih sempurna

Bertahun sudah kita bersama
Hanya dusta sebalik setia
Kau biar ku derita menangis di dalam jiwa
Kau terluka aku lah peneman
Kau bahagia aku ditinggalkan
Mudahnya kau berubah
Sepiku berteman air
Berlalulah kau masa
Aku tidak berdaya
Temukannya yg lebih sempurna

Changing my status

Officially married on 18th March 2017.

Dear husband,

I Choose You. 

To be no other than yourself.

Loving what I know of you

and trusting who you will become. 

I will respect and honor you

always and in all ways. 

I take you to be my husband

to have and to hold,

in tears and in laughter,

in sickness and in health. 

To love and to cherish

from this day forward

in this world and the next.

Semoga perkahwinan kita sentiasa dalam rahmat dan perlindungan Allah s.w.t.
آمِيّنْ... آمِيّنْ... يَا رَ بَّ العَـــالَمِيْن

I think i finally got my closure.

I have no idea why i stalked his past.
Its just that something doesnt feels right about this. I know, curiosity kills the cat. Well yeah indeed i died multiple times inside finding out things i dont want to.
/sighs

Yes, I'm insecure. But lying to me or hiding things from me is not helping.
The exact words I told him.
Plus, he is nice to everyone so he's easily misunderstood.

I told him i want no secrets no hiding things from me. But I dont know. Its hard to trust but without trust, its hard to stay in relationship.

I dont mind you hang out with your twitter friends that you rarely meet. But instead of jaga hati those yg you seldomly meet or talk, please jaga hati ini lebih sikit. YOU ARE MARRYING ME, NOT THEM!! 

Babe, I'm your present and your future. Please focus on me. 

Ughh.. nauseated.

Why? Because I saw couple of photos of you and your ex. Yeah I know you already broke up 6 years ago. I'M NOT JEALOUS OR ANYTHING.

But.

The thought of you treating me the same way to treat her. Thats what makes me want to vomit. And thats it.

I'm NOT letting you treating me that way anymore. I wont let you level down me to your standard. Treat me like diamond. I dont want to be a cheap jeweleries.

Damn it.

This cannot be a mistake.

I'm heartbroken. 

I'm sad. 

Which i shouldnt be feeling that way.

I know about his past relationships. He told me during our early relationship. He was being open to me. I listen all of it. Then I put off the thought.

But sometimes, me being insecure. I want to know more, unnecessarily. Then I found out and it bring me further down. I know I shouldnt be. 

He's mine now. He's the first though. I hope for ever and ever. I know I cant be his first but I want to be his last. 

This cannot be a mistake. 

あ~なんで好きになっちゃったのかな

Hey darling,

You're so far apart from what I once told my friend, was my ideal person..

but even so,

I wonder why I fell for you

I'm a little bit odd arent I?

You're the only one that I just cant leave alone, darling.

Out of these people as countless as the stars..

You picked me even though I heard that I look nothing like you favourite actress
I wonder why you fell for me
You're really weird
but you're the only one I can talk so selfishly, darling

I wonder why we fell for each other
but we've already fallen for each other
so lets make this work as two equally odd people
you're the only one that I want by my side forever.

Personality test re-take

Regarding this entry , it a personality test I took in 2011. Now its 2015 already so I decided to re-take the test and see how different I have become.

Your view on yourself:
2011

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

2015

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

Comment
So I went from hiding myself to being straightforward. Still a good listener tho ♡

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
2011

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes

2015

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Comment
Yep2.. time to settle down now isnt it? Life partner~ come out come out where ever yu are~ ♪

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
2011

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

2015

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

Comment
Wow this one is very, very true. Actually malas sebenarnya nk fikir. I don't wanna push myself into relationship. 

The seriousness of your love:
2011

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

2015

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Comments...
No comment. lol

Your views on education
2011

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

2015

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

Comments
Start working [X], earning money [X], living on my own [X]
Unusual job huh? I end up being who I want to be tho?

The right job for you:
2011 = 2015

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

Comments
This job is right for me. I'm in love-hate relationship with my job. 

How do you view success:
2011

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous

2015

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

Comments
Yep. Still a bit afraid of failure since I've started this career but... yes! gotta be confident!

What are you most afraid of:
2011 = 2015

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Comments
Well... errrr....

Who is your true self:
2011 = 2015

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Comments
I'm still my true self?  

So overall, I think I love the me now. More composed compared to 5 years ago.
Ok bye

Ochiruuuuuuu~

I'm falling..

It feels like I'm letting it loose and it falls.. dragging me along.. deep.

and there's no way I can help it.

and there's no turning back.
I'm falling hard.

久しぶりだこの気持ち。
違うのは今回のが本当かもしれないし。

しょうがなくて落ちたんだ。

いつの間にか心が開いた、好きになっちゃった。

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Dear Eemir Athirah,

I remember the first time I knew you in LJ which was in 2008 I think.
I was posting some icons of HSJ and you liked them and then we started talking to each other.
And started from you, I 'met' a lot of other online friends.
Those who know the side of me that my real life friend, my family don't even know about.
It's really fun talking to you.

And then we met face to face with Sacchi, three of us.
We fangirls, flailing on our fav boys, exchanged videos, talk about real life, ventilated a bit.
Last we met was at JL-Fest. It was fun! Let's do this again soon.

One of the workshop in JL-Fest

HEART ♥

LOVE THIS 

Day7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Dear my ex-boyfriend(s), 
It was short, but thanks for the memories, the experience you've gave me.
I'm sorry it wasn't meant to be.

Dear my crush, 
I know you know that I like you since childhood.
You were my ultimate childhood crush, and forever will be.
We can never work it out. but actually, we have never begin.
Now, you are taken, by the prettiest, sweetest girl that won your heart.
Cherish her well.



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Egoistical

Day 6 - Letter to a stranger

Hello dear stranger,

Aku x kenal kau n kau x kenal aku? or maybe aku kenal kau n kau kenal aku? hahaha whatever. Tp kalau aku x kenal kau pun, I'm looking forward to meet you and to know you. Mungkin kau sebenarnye my significant other? cewaaahhh~ mne tau kn? kn? or, or kau akan jadi mortal enemy aku? tak kenal maka tak chentaaaa chuyyy!

Wahai stranger, kau 1001 misteri yg menyelubungi hidupku. ahooyyy~

Day 5 - Letter to my dream(s)

Dear the dreams I listed below,

1. Be a good doctor
2. Be a neurologist
3. Passed JLPT 1
4. Haji umrah with family
5. Touch down Japan, Great Britain, Europe, all over the world
6. Build a family
7. A very big house with pool and any ball court
8. Get one doko demo door (Doraemon's door)
9. Be happy

Don't be too far, You better stay close! I'll definitely get you!! (though yg ke 8 tu x mungkin lah. hikz)

Images courtesy of Tumblr.com 

Day 4 - Letter to my siblings

Dear my dua org little bros,

Disebabkan dpt dua org adik lelaki cm korg dua org ni la yg buat mak rse cm xde anak pompuan kt umah. Yg buat akak kau ni cam samseng Kg Pisang. Sbb korg ni time kecik2 dlu xpenah nk dgr ckp. Maybe sbb berbeza jauh kot (5 taun, 7 taun). Xde pencerahan awal cmne nk jd kakak yg baik.

Nak2 lg dak Sol. cm x keren je. Nak2 lg dak Soul. Klu ckp sket je kau mula la buat muka ngn mata bercelak bulu mata cm unta dah boleh jadi Darth Soul dah. Gaduh2 baling remote TV, baling gunting, baling garfu, sepit kau kt celah pintu sbb sebok je nk masuk bilik org, buat org jerit2 smpai ujung jalan boleh dengar. Pastu bile kne kt kau sket2 nangis. Yg kne marah ngn mak abah spe?? akuhhhhh jugak.  Ketegaq nak mampuih hang ni dlu. Buat org panas hati je sampai mak soh akak dok utan sbb alergi ngn kau. Sket2 nk gaduh. Psychopath betol dok gunting telinga org la, kau naya budak cina smpai akak kne mrh ngn abg die.

Kalau psychopath time kecik2 dlu xpe la gak. ni dh besau buang la psychopath kau tu ke longkang. Aweks pn takut. Sekarang bila da ade Ninja, buat org risau plak. Sekejap2 balik Melake. Melake-Kuantan tu mcm dari Felcra ke Kg Baru je kn dekatnye. Pastu dgn kes yg ritu lg ntah pehal tbe2 kne belasah. Risau tau tak!!

Dak Apis lak, pendiam je. Suka ngn dak Apis ni. Walaupun kau degil gak (sbb kau kwn ngn abg kau.. hahaha) tp still ikut ckp. Tu pon lepas ckp buuuaaannyaaaakkkk kali 92847646362 kali bru kau nk dgr ckp. Tp kdg2 kau pn jd mangsa abg kau. Kesian kt kau. Tu la spe suruh xnk kwn ngn akak. Padammuke. hahaha.

Skrg ni kau asik ngn game online jek. Same la ngn dak Samsul. Dok asrama pn kejap2 balik. Asal kau balik je main PC, asal main PC je kau balik. Suruh blaja nk SPM susah. Nak ajak g jenjalan pn susah. Sampai rse cm nk sangkut je desktop tu kt leher kau tu bru kau nk ikut agaknye. Kau tau x, dak samsul tu dlu jeles kau dpt desktop bru tp die mintak laptop bru pn mak xnk bagi. Pastu bile akak mintak kt mak dapat pn die jeles. Sentap. Ni kau kn tgh SPM, jawab leklok. Challenge kau ni - dptkn lg byk A dr time akak dlu.

Hah! Lagi satu, korg cari balik komik RAVE, Recca, Dari Alam Angker, Under 18 and sume2 komik yg haram jadah da xde dlm bilik akak. Xde korg ganti balik! X pedulik ah spe yg amek.

             

P/S - Samsol, sorry la suke ckp ko anak kutip kt tong sampah yg kat Semabok tuh. hahahaha. (siap2 kne belangkung ngn mak)

dolu dolu

Cikalang

Meme~ (bukan memey tp meem) hahahaha!

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs. replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz. those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#This has to be in English. preferably#

1. Which celebrity would you like to meet and why?
As for now, ♥♥♥ COLIN MORGAN ♥♥♥
because he's the cutest (with dimples and his jaw lines), modest, sincerest, tallest, funny and has this sexy British/Irish accent.

2. What do you do before bedtime?
Thinking of how nice it would be if I can stay like this, lying on my bed, getting ready to sleep and then sleep until forever more..? That's the laziness speaking.

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
Ummmm... errrr.. ummm.. No idea. XD but since we're talking about 'DREAM' wed, I supposed I want one with peach-red or white-green and we'll just hold it at my parents house, having all my related helping the wedding or like co-organized it. Not like I wanna burden them, I just like the feeling of being close to each other.

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
I must admit it. I love my home city - MELAKA!
But again 'dreams' so
1. Japan - I love the country of origin of my idols and the culture and the simply stunning view in some places
2. United Kingdom - all of it. but more to country-side because in the movies they are so beautiful. and because Colin Morgan is there. and Bradley James.
3. Europe - I wanna see Eiffel Tower and to Vienna and such...

5. Why is the sky blue?
Because the color is reflected from the sea.. eh, or is it the sea blue is reflected from the sky? I don't know which one is right.. but then it's definitely because it's not green.

6. Would you ever wait for a week outside a venue to see your favourite artist/band?
A week is too much.. they wouldn't make us do that. XDD

7. Do you prefer the guy to proposed or just tell "Let's get married" casually?
I would prefer to be proposed. It's like every girl's dream. I mean, it's not like 'Jom kite kawen' is a bad idea but it wont make a special memory.

8. If the person you secretly like is already taken, what would you do?
I'll be jealous of the person who's taken the person i like, and do my best to look my best for the person i like so that he/she might fall for me, haha XD but mostly, my 'I like' mostly doesn't mean 'I want' so I just let it go.

9. Can you cook?
I can cook but to the extend of my taste. I can kill people with my spicy food. I can kill myself with my spicy food too. lol

10. Do you have a good body-image?
hahahahahahahahaha!! this makes me laugh. nope!

11. Is being tagged fun?
depends on what mood I have.. being tagged sometimes is fun, but tagging ppl is pain in a butt!!

12. What websites do you visit daily?
Tumblr, Instagram, Facebook, LJ

13. If you were guaranteed 100% safe, free and painless cosmetic surgery, would you get it?
nope.. I'm fine with the way I look now..

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
A cute crazy girl from Finland, she's a good dancer and I love chatting with her. She's really talkative..

15. What's the last song that got stuck in your head?
Hilary Duff's Why Not.

16. What’s your favorite item of clothing?
Accessories like necklace. but I don't like anything on my hands except for ring.

17. What's better: to give or to receive?
We should give and take..

18. What's the first thing you notice in people?
Appearance and what they did and analyze them through it. lol. I'm a psycho!

19. Would you have 100% safe sex with a stranger for $10,000,000?
No way!!! NOOOOOOOO WAAAAAAAAAAYYYY! *screams*

20. What were your parents going to name you if you'd been born the opposite gender?
No idea... should I ask them? Maaaakkk!! ah, they sleep already...

21. What do you want to be when you grow up?

I just wanna be happy with what I've become.